Mid Life Crises already? When life is lace..and just less ordinary?
I was pretty concentrated here, cutting labels in a 'backpackers motel' months back in Cambodia but this picture 'looks' like a feel today..
Have you ever asked yourself the question 'what am I doing with my life?'
I did, just over 1 ½ year ago and not a minute to late. I followed my heart this time.
It was a decision that wasn't based on clear thoughts and smart moves, certainly not.
But it was a decision based on what I wanted, not what was expected of me,
Alice the reasonable and always trustworthy, the one that was having a small
career while being a social butterfly.
I did something that wasn't like me at all, and it was the best thing I have ever done.
I'm now 29 and ten years back I would have thought that by this age
I would have kids, I would be married, perhaps not a millionaire and hugely
successful but pleased and settled.
Well, I wouldn't imagine that I was just in the beginning of the biggest journey of my lifetime? It wasn't just buying the plane ticket and then setting out in the world,
it was much more than just the travel in itself, it was the beginning of a journey where I not only chased the Manufacturer suitable for my sketched Collection, it was also about finding myself and learn how to create freely.
I had been living an ordinary life with short holidays here and there without no
big excitement, nothing exciting like this. But then, well perhaps now It just came to me, that question that I asked myself almost 2 years ago: What am I doing with my life?..that question shouldn't been asked really, because it's a chase for a blissful place that doesn't really excist, we can't all be millionaires and lay on the sunny beaches in Hawaii, by the way, that would probably bore us to death after a while as well. The eternal search for 'paradise' or a feeling of being happy, sometimes I think I would be better off without a brain, no thinking and asking questions, just a little bit more doing and I would probably start feeling excited about my brand and the future again. It sounds tropical, packing your bag and leaving all that 'playing house and having routine' but truthfully I miss it sometimes, not just having plants to water but also a sense of home, I'll stay here and choose my own curtains and cook my own recepies and most of all, friends that are just a bus ride away, friends, my real 'girl friends'..I'll take my mom's words and have a good sleep and perhaps it will all feel much better in the morning..
Love from Alice, in her own little wonderland,New Zealand