A decision to shine?
Placing the broach that I now removed from another sample to give correct placement to my vendor in India, seen here on my sample from my first collection Autumn-08
The depression or the poor state that I suddenly felt I was in(and that lasted from Sunday evening until today) just turned everything up side down and most off all me. It kind of caught me off guard, not really knowing what to do about myself. Should I just accept this dark mood I was in?, sleep it off or have a cold shower, trying to just rinse it off. What could bring me back?, it almost felt as if I went into a coma. Thinking about the future, my life and all my great plans and projects usually made me so excited but now it just made me feel more sad and depressed, yes that was just it, I felt so sad. I kept thinking back to the book I read just a few months ago about Sidney Sheldon and how he ended up in these depression 'mood' swings making everything seem hopeless and sad, even tough he was very successful, but this was something diachronic for him and something he had been fighting his whole life, whilst my state was something of a chock and brand new.
Trying to place the broach on another sample that I decided not to use in my new collection..
It has now slowly and finally worn off which feels wonderful, it's like the sun just came out and the rain disappeared and I smiled waking up and was my normal chatty and positive self.
Weird how its even possible to wake up 2 days ago with such a terrible feeling inside, like life was all over and the things that was wonderful just wasn't there anymore or if they where they turned into bad ones. I still don't know what really happened but when I woke up today it just felt a little bit better inside and then during the day that 'feel good' vibe inside started spreading and I felt like Forrest Gump in some alternate movie. Life is a Box of chocolate, you never know which mood your are going to wake up in?
No, today was a turning point for me and it was a decision to be happy again that made me start typing to my vendor, grabbing the opportunity's and life by its trough't. So today I put some measurements together and the final details of that dear but oh so complicated bumblebee that I'm trying to place on the jackets.
Tomorrow will be a even better Day..